I know you've heard this line before but...I was singing since I was about two not professionally but I was always drawn to singing and started singing before I spoke.
I remember my first moment of singing recognition and it was in Kindergarten. My teacher Mrs. Burns had us all singing and after we stopped and some children couldn't catch on to the melody she said "Listen to how Jennifer sings it" and then she had me sing for them.
Although I was scared...I did it and I never forgot that feeling. I felt special like I had a special skill for singing and I didn't even realize it. I thought everyone could sing in tune.
I believe at that time I was watching Lawrence Welk and the Donny & Marie Osmond show before bedtime which was something I looked forward to all day! It wasn't playing dolls or playing house...definately not playing house in fact I despised that! I would sing along with Donny & Marie and try to emulate them at a very young age. This was good and bad in ways.
It's good to be able to emulate someones tone and style but one shouldn't get stuck there for they will never find their own voice.
Anyway, by the third grade we had an assignment of creating a poster about what we wanted to be when we grew up. Without hesitation I started cutting out pictures of Donny and Marie and pasted them on a paper and wrote "I want to be a famous singer" and having way more confidence and less modesty than I do now I also wrote "I already sing like Marie Osmond anyway."
Can you believe the "balls" it took for me to brag about myself at such a young age 0f 8 and have it hanging up on the wall in school? Maybe it was because there were no dream crushers in my path as of yet...
But...you would never find me posting that statement anywhere at my age for there would be a sea of people standing at my door to disprove it in a minute.
I can tell you that I have a long way to go to regain my singing confidence but I know that deep inside this is what I love to do and I want to do it. I feel such a happiness and such a release of my soul when I sing. It is part of who I am and it was evident from a young age. That's the first thing I was ever passionate about and if you've ever been through career counseling you know that they ask you to try to remember what you naturally had an interest in at a young age.
SINGING! SINGING! SINGING! That's all I ever loved to do!
The story will continue soon...come back and visit me!
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